I finally got through the two MRI sessions. During last Friday's scan, the machine broke down so that was rescheduled for today. It was a long session, took 2 1/2 hours for the brain and neck scan. I'm glad that I have no pain when laying on the table and am content laying in a confined space for long times. Getting up off the table took some help and was painful.
The last few days have been the roughest yet of the journey. All the other times I had pain or stiffness, I had more hope that it would get better. When you are recovering from surgery, you have hope you will heal and things will get better. The worst pain is when I sit up after laying down on the couch or being in bed. I haven't really got on a good routine of pain med yet, which I need to do, so maybe that will help some. It's about all I can do to bend over and get my socks on or off. I even notice that my walking is going a bit slower, I just can't take as long a stride as before.
I'm not trying to complain. I want you all to know that I would not trade places with anyone. But as before I find it hard not to be open and share what is going on. Pray most of all for my attitude, and that I can remain upbeat and smiling.
What I'm Learning from Cancer #1
Faith is the “Real Deal”. What we have
been taught about salvation is true.
When I come to the edge of life, I can see the peace in my heart and the
confidence that I am ready to die. I
guess another way of saying this is that when I look back at my decision 19
years ago to put my faith in Jesus Christ and repent for my sins, I don’t
regret that decision. It has been worth
it, and any short-term “sacrifices” were worth it. If you are “sitting on the fence”, let me
assure you that our faith is one that you can die by. I gave this analogy to the Sunday School
kids. When you decide you want to be a
fireman, you probably have a little nervousness of whether you would really be
able to put out a true house fire or not.
So you train every week, the chief sets practice fires, and you learn
how to put out a fire. But you still
don’t really know if you’ve been taught properly until you have a real fire
call. And then you are able to put out
the fire, and see that the things you were taught about fighting fires were
correct. So it’s like I’ve been to the
fire call now, I know what we have been taught about salvation is able to give
me peace as I face death. I don’t wish
the pain and anguish on any of you, but there is a certain comfort in being
tested in this way and being more convinced in my mind that what we believe of
salvation is true.
Derek & Leann